Ever since i could remember i have always been a big size.. even when i was younger , in primary and secondary school people ,friends and even family has always been calling me FAT.. even when i see myself as an average size..they have always find a way to bring me down ..
For some people, they can take all the criticism and pull it together ,turn it into determination and prove everyone wrong . Somehow, in my case thats NOT what happen.. as years gone by .. i kinda lost myself and pile on the weight.. If when i was younger and weight about 80kg .. they all called me fat.. I guess i am considers a dinasour at a high weight of 107kg...!!
But funnily with each Kg add on.. I gained more confidence, self love and just more aware of myself.. I became my own person. i dont give a damn what people say, think and just do to me behind or up front to my face.. Im just being me and loving it ....
With all the new found confident, i realize people are more accepting of me now, then me being the quiet, innocent, blur, ignorant and just plain old boring person that i was . They love and hate me for being to blunt , up front about things and sometimes i can be nicest and sweetest thing and i can also be the meanest and bitchiest person u'll ever get to meet .
Anyway, this new blog is kinda like a diary for me , cause i am hoping to get engage or married either by end of this year or at least next year.. so i am now in a journey of losing weight... so i hope to document this journey .. so i can oneday look back and see when/if i do achieve my goal.. what it took me to get there.. At the same time , if anyone out there who is taking their own similar journey .. they know they r not alone and that least assured.. I will be on the "LOSER" journey with them... together...!!Let's go..!! we can go it..!!
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